I fingered my girlfriend a month ago and now she hates me HELP?

My girlfriend wants to be friends because 2 weeks before she proposed the idea we should be friends she called me over to her house and we ended up going to sexual? ( saw her naked first time and I fingered her) she felt guilty and regretful and ignored me for roughly 2 weeks, i stopped contacting her she then contacted me out the blue asking if we could be friends? I asked her why? She said she don't love me anymore which I dont suppose is the truth. I said that I dont want to be her friend �because I don't see her as a friend ( she was upset she said no please :( ) but she then blocked and deleted me on msn and removed me from her life. Even when her friends talk to her about me (just random stuff) she would act angry and say who are you talking about? it's been 2 weeks since she's blocked and deleted me from her life and I've made no attempt to contact her and she hasn't to me and I miss her so much and I want her back. I've also found out her mums got cancer from one of my friends ( she wasn't lieng ) . What should I do? Contact her? ( bdw her mums recovering so dw ) my ex hasn't told me her mums got cancer because she isn't talking to me at all. I miss her so much. It's been one month since the incident and last night I texted her asking if we could get back together without being physical a unite for a while T first she said friends? I said no let's not label our relationship let's be me and you. And she said well I don't like you in that way and the conversation ended asking me not to ever talk to her again. So I'm blocked and deleted of man and fb and she told me never to contact her again. Please help it's been one whole month and I ruined everything last night what should I do?�